Wednesday, January 31, 2007

a break from the notes.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...breath taking
Your hugs are...gentle
Your eyes...twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...the only thing I desire
Your smell is...exotic
Your smile is...encouraging
Your love is...eternal

what the hell is a ChibiMarronchan ?

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

you did very well..

i entered the class,
lin ha ha haa haaa chooooooooo was....
okay i shall stop playin with lecturers name before some kind of funny retribution happen or wad.
lin chin choo was going tru the test answers.
i wake up terribly late this morning,
entered like at 9.45 or 9.50 like that.
she was alreadi at the structured question answers.

i stare blankly.
god damn it.

"55 people of this class fail"

- break comes -

"Linda, u improved a lot"
"Seriously a lot, just by being able to answer the official and real unemployment rate correctly had impressed me a lot"

"u fail"
"borderline lah...almost pass there"

i stood beside her in silence.
actually i wanted to laugh really loud there and then.
think man...
she said u improved a lot !
ain't u gonna think that u at least pass ?

my heart was pumping faster.
that made me emotionless.
that's why i can't luff.

she then stare at me

"Herbert, you did very well"
afraid that it'll be another tricky thing like she did for the linda girl
"So, what does that suppose to mean....."
"hermm...about 70 70 ++ around that area"

WOHOOO - in my heart

some girl- "wow, that's very well"
"thanks :)"

and she turned her attention to someone else

rushes up the stairs to get the empty cup for the coffee.
wanted to jump in joy badly.
been smiling to myself since then.

but then again,
i've always been able to score at unemployment.
she said the same thing to the previous time i took her CA1 test.
okay, only without the "very" there lah.
she said i did well only lah.
but i remembered her she got say i tobalik lah.
people score in MCQ i score in the structured.

this time then balance :)


i'm still damn happy lah...
in addition to the happiness,
f's mom agreed to sponsor ( bout 70% ) her for a dslr cam too !
she might be getting the 400d sweetie too.


please don't let anything / anyone spoil my night and this will be one of those days that'll be bookmarked in my book of life :) to the bed to prepare for tonight's battle with the BL notes.

ps. DRI, i've decided to buy the EF 28 - 105 mm f/3.5 - 4.5 II USM lens and don't u freakin poison me anymore with other lenses.
tonite u shall not distract me with camera matters.
u made me spent 2 damn hours reading about the diff lenses last nite when i was suppose to be studying.
god damn it, practically u made me sleep at 6 a.m. when i'm suppose to wake up at 7.30 a.m. lah.
so the 28 - 105mm is it man.
and a cable release.
and a new heavier tripod.
and that is it man !

time is flying fast.

can u feel it ?
i can.

it's been 27 days since i last saw her.
it's been 20 days since my last cig.

it's flying fast.

1 day to blaw test.
(now 30th ald)

7 days to macro in class assignment that'll cost another 10% of the CA.
13 damn days to patrick no brain's project hand in.
15 days to a lonely valentine :(
17 days to imec presentation.

18 more days to seeing you again !
and may be my belated valentine ?
got such thing ?


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it's been 27 days eh ?
man..that seems long.

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remember that shot ?
it's by u.

it's so nice having u around.
having someone with the same wavelength.
someone who's willing to try to understand me.
thank you so much :)

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i remember that night.
the first night u open up to me.
when we had just started going out,
i remember asking u something,
u told me that u'll answer it when u feel the time's ready.
that watermelon and strawberry was the companion,
yeah yeah...
with the food i always eat outside,
nasi soto =P
i'm so glad that night happened.
i believe everything has a beginning.
i don't know when is our beginning.
but i guess that night could be.
the very first night u open up to me.
the night u felt the time was right.

18 more days...

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oh, i so can't wait.


30 days to exam 1
31 days to exam 2
32 days to exam 3


may be not total freedom lah.
at least it'll be a relief from all the works.

now i gotta make one of my new year's resolution come true...
no retaking the exams this time.
gotta PASS all at one GO !
yeah...luff all u want, or u can be nice and help motivate me and pray for me.
either way, i'm still hoping and praying and studying my way there.

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gotta go throw myself at those notes.
good luck for the test u people from intake 13, if there's any.

ps. i've notice that my click counter is jumping kinda fast lately,
is the site i outsource for the code had gone mad or is this site really is increasing in its clicks ?
well i hope latter.

Sunday, January 28, 2007


i think this will be a picture intensive entry.
but i've thumnailed them all.
so if u wanna see the bigger size...
just click on the pic.

was practically shooting away the whole damn day.
figure out a small part of my wardrobe is actually white !
so i cleared out that area and started positioning the lights and began shooting !

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i didn't really know what to shoot at first thou,
so i took this out...
something i seldom use.

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before i use my fav model.

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i love both shots.
i think the gucci one looks really classy.
and my lion is simply the cutest thing ever.
admit it.

then i began playing with some candles again.
had a few of those flames thing again before i began being narcists again.

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and yes, i love this one.
somehow i think my body looks good here.

alright, let me rewind first to yesterday.
went out bowling with the guys.

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had like two bowls of prawn mee for supper.
i think i like reach home around this time...
bout 3.58 a.m.
and f, if u're gonna get "sebel" again after reading this.
please know that i've just finished shooting like an hour ago.
spent the last hour photoshopping the pics.
and here i am posting this entry.

the night before,
i got really so damn bored.
i attached my baby to the tripod.
took it out for a walk.
there's something about the night lights taht amaze me.
i went to the overhead bridge and began shooting again.

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it was then i again,
feel of shooting myself,
that i began to realise that it's kinda gettin damn eerie there.

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i left, immediately.

macro photography.

there's this thing called reversed lense technique in dslr photography.
usually people do this by mounting their kit lens to the cam and holding the cheapest canon lens - the f/1.8 II 50mm reversed aiming at some very small object.
since i have both the required lens,
i spent half a day trying to figure out how the hell to do it as u gotta manually focus the thing lah.
quite hard,
and i've never thought i have the patience to actually sit there and shoot this kind of photography.
proud to say,
i kinda figured out this trick.
if wanna hao lian ah...
den can say...i master it alreadi ah.
no sweat alreadi lah.

i think,
if i were to browse tru my images and really categorise them.
i'll really say i've shoot macro pics the most.
and most of my best photos are also of macro shots.
of animals.

i really love my sony macro's power.
whenever i go hunting.
i'll always take both my cameras.
my canon for all the shoots that i'll be doing while i'll use my sony for all the macros.
as long as there's enough light.
somehow doing macro wif my sony is still better and sharper than the canon.
yeah, coz i haven't got any macro lens yet lah.

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both insects are not dead.
that's from the sony.

and here,
are the reversed lens photography from the canon.
u gotta view the bigger image to do justice to the photo man.
u can't see no nuts from this one here.

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that insect is dead.
got suffocated and died.
how it got suffocated ?
don't ask please.

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that's my hair man !
the dyed part and the black part !

oh...i love photographies.
i'm so taking the wrong course.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

playing with fire.

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your mum always tell u not to play with fire.
what do i say to it ?
as long as it's for the love of art.
other than that...
please don't.

anyway, after the test...
felt like shooting.
badly !
so i was there sitting down thinkin of what to shoot.
i take out my lion.
shot a couple of times...
then i kinda thought
hermm....all the same poses and themes.
i've got no other lighting ideas.
that was when i brought out all my candles and began shooting the candles only.

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and now...
my table is like fill wif candle wax that is yet to be cleaned.
like...damn messy lah now
ask me man...
is it worth it.
is it worth the mess i've made for the few minutes of photography.
i must tell u.
totally worth it !
the best pics are yet to come !

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check those two out man...
those two are wad made the mess totally worth it.

and when u screwed up at some shots like this one here...

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it's still alright
just put on ur creative cap on and.....
make use of the pic to make fun of ur lecturer like this

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there's just something wrong wif u mr. o'brien

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

when i'm suppose to be studying.

tomorrow is the first macro test.
15% if i'm not wrong.
pretty confident with all the working questions.
especially unemployment,
the chapter i conquer best.
guess i'd rather be questioned with lottsa words than with a chunk of numbers.

again, been eating and sleeping a lot since the stop.
16 days ago.
ask cz..
he knows.
i don't get the urge to smoke no more.
but why the hell is the withdrawals still around ?
or has it gone ?
when will it be gone ?
wth ?
they say it'll last for like 1 to 2 months.
but then i don't feel like smoking alreadi leh.
i'm not finding any urges anymore.
everything seems normal now.
thou, u know when i'm like feelin down and staring at those notes...
there's some kind of urge there.
like..there used to be something burning by my hand.
but the good thing is,
my table seems bigger now..
without the ashtray, lighters and the cig.
when will it be over sia ?
how would i know ?
anybody knows ?

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i can't stop but notice this,
on my way back home the other day i saw this big advert by the bus stop.
the sp my first choice advert.
i noticed the name first before the face of the guy somehow.
nigel !
fwah...nigel !
den i look up and...HAHAHAHAHAHAH
nigel SINGH

this is some lonely pic of cz.

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met up wif him for a lunch just now.
some expensive lunch it was.
but the stomach was happy.
i bet the worms inside were like partee-ing.

i don't really like this shot,
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felt it's a bit overexpose or wad.
i think i overdo the post production.
but the hell wif it...
editted it alreadi.

hermm...don't think any of my current classmate knows the existance of this blog.
so...yeah good luck to me for tomorrow !

Monday, January 22, 2007

sent, now i need luck !

thanks nige for the wonderful compliment.
and stef,
it's not the botanical thing.
the place where i used to work in indo had this small garden where lots of butterflies and lots of other funny funny insects stays.
i just took my cam and snap snap snap.
now there are like some bugs that i don't even remember shooting.
emma, i squat down -.-"
put the camera almost on the ground.
and oh yeah, that's a nice design there at ur blog.
don't really like the banner thou =x

sent all 5 to the contest.
which closes tomorrow.
don't even think i have chance.
i mistakenly sent the small size file !
they requested that each file should not be more than 900kb.
i resize them and forgot to check !!
i sent them like only 200kb size file !!
compress too much !!
one more fatal mistake is...
i accidentally clicked the send button before i attach the picture !
coz like each picture is sent in a single email.
i was suppose to send 5.
i sent 6.
one..with the details of the pic, but no pic.
damn it !

the first time i enter into such a contest and i've made so blardy much mistake !

oh yeah btw,
i think i've cut down the F word tremendously on these last few post ah...
just realised.

another girly pic.
but i kinda like it tied up.

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

the contest.

here are the pictures i've finally selected for the contest.
submitting tomorrow.
tell me wad ya think.........

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ipod series.

damn it,
i've been eating non stop from morning.
chocs and snacks.
m&m, ferrero rocher, the ligo raisins, limesticks...
after breakfast and after lunch !

pleasee pleasee let me gain like...2 kg before chinese new year.
i wanna look good man...
wanna look good the next time i can see her :)

it's like i'm suppose to study now.
but like no mood.
i think it shld be around 2 weeks already wad right...
ain't the withdrawals suppose to go away like by now ?

the ipod in pink, yello and wad's suppose to be light blue but didn't turn out so.

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love the mood for these two shoots !!

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a terrorist lookalike...

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imagine him saying
"must kill must kill must kill must kill"

Saturday, January 20, 2007

the lion, my beloved model.

don't you just love the rain...?
the weather is so shiok la

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love the rain :)

u know how when u feel like u've got bits and pieces of broken stuff left to be gathered and cleared ?
i felt that way about jill.
it was as if there was still things left unsettled and stuff.
i didn't bother bout it thou.
till this morning,
when i decided to really clear things out between jill, my heart and my life now.
the hot bath this morning relieved everything.
i think best under the running water :)
there's really nothing in here no more.
u know,
i finally am able to really accept her as a friend.
there's really nothing inside anymore.
i really do hope that she too is able to get over us quickly.
and i do wish all the very best to her in every single thing she does.

to you f,
thank you for being so understanding.
thank you :)
and i can't wait till chinese new year too.

i tried some lighting stuff with my table lamp.
and use the lion as my model.
the results ?
i think they're great !
again, click for bigger size to pop out.
i've adjusted them to fit ur desktop size.
in case, u like my photography and decided to set it as ur wallpaper.
dream on bert

the yelloo series,

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the pink series,

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the light blue series,

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double vision.

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i think that's green and not yellow...
i don't know.
and u know bout my eye.
so just be nice and understand.