the one with prediction

been watching friends like too much, thus the title up there.
kana influenced.
i finished watching season 2 and 3
left season 4 and more to buy.

something interesting happen this morning and i so have to share this.


i woke up like 3.30 am this morning coz dad told me we gotta go to this temple to pray and stuff.
what i didn't know was that...
we're not just going there to pray.
down here in medan,
there's lots of this small temple where there's a guy / woman who claim / say / really can make one of those buddhas enter their body and talk to us.
we go there and all we gotta do is ask questions and they'll just answer perfectly.
i mean...seriously powderfully.
okay so...this guy that i went to this morning was so powderful that people had started queueing up at his doorstep by like 2 am and the small temple is only open by 5.
we gotta queue...there'll be a guy giving out queue numbers.
we got 11 and 12.
dad, mom, me and one of my cousins reached at around 4.30 and we only got to talk to this guy by like 8.
that's like 3 hours plus of waiting.
mom said it was worth it.
me ?
i'm left dumbfounded and filled with curiousity.
okay..this is what happen.
since i forgot which buddha enters this guy body...let's just call this buddha by the initial "b".


we entered in...
and b was like sitting down.
he stopped at no.10 and took a rest.
meaning, the buddha got out of this guy's body and the guy rest.
by around 8+ we entered.
i was standing at one corner while mom was already kneeling down by him.
dad sat down and my cousin followed.
i saw this guy cover his face with a cloth and was chanting some matra.
after a while he rose up suddenly banging the table with one of his hand.
"bang"
and it means that he had summoned the buddha in him.
mom spoke some cheem hokkien to him.
i then quickly knelt down.
okay..this is shock no. 1.
as soon as i knelt down by him, he immediately shouted at me angrily.

"YOU SPENDRIFT"
"USELESS CHILD, ALREADY 20 YEARS OLD STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO EARN MONEY" and bla bla bla bla...i forgot
he just kept repeating that i'm a child that only knows how to spend and never want to know how to earn money.
the fact about me being a spendrift is right i suppose.
i spend a lot.
the other thing about me not wanting to know how to earn cash is....
hermm...
let's explain it this way.
personally, it's crap.
coz i do want to earn my own cash.
but again, i'm lazy to learn my parent's business to earn money.
i prefer to go out to work.
and there was never a chance...
so each holiday is only spent with me lazing around.
i guess he's right.
i'm useless and i never want to know how to earn money.
wtf ?

arguement number 1.

no no no...not that i dun wanna work for that.
but i've been away for so long and most of dad's workers treat me like...you know
the boss's son.
they can't fucking treat me like a co-worker.
that's for the lower level staff.
for the higher one,
when i try to chip in some management logic to them...
they'll just turn a deaf ear on me.
thinking that i'm too young and has no right to control them.
they never listen.
when i told dad what i thought about one thing, dad will just tell me to go straight to his staff and tell them.
and they never listens to me.
that turn me off directly.
which after so many tries and over time...i become lazy to work for that becoz of these people.

anyway, dad finally officially appointed me like the warehouse manager when i come back.
and i start work tml.
i'm suppose to imply a new management system for his warehouse mangement.
he feels that the warehouse management suck and he wanna test me after all those money he spent on me.
i accepted it even before i return home coz dad has been talkin to me about this a few weeks back.

shock no 2.
he shouted.
something like whenever i talk to my mum..i'll be pissed off and will feel like she wanna start a fight and in return i'll be cold to her.
that is fucking right.
that b guys has never even meet me man !

shock no 3.
he showed me a small little red book.
opened it for me and asked me if i can see anything.
i saw nothing.
seriously nothing.
blank pages.
but somehow deep inside me i felt that there's something down there.
but i saw nothing.
he then closes the small book.
flip it open again.
and there was red chinese writings all over them.
WTF ?
at that moment....
he truly made me convinced that this bugger really had a buddha entered him.

moreover,
my cousin had told me lots of things bout this guy.
about how he scolded one of my cousin and know his history the moment he first meet my cousin.
and more....

those seriously left me dumbfounded.
but wad made change my mind was after all those scolding.
he told me that since i'm still young...he scold me...but if i'm already old...
there's no point scolding anymore.
then my cousin came and ask him some stuff.
and wadeva he said prior to us telling him were like all so chun !
like
my cousin asked b about his house.
he told b the road name and the house numba and immediately the guy said...
"oh..the one at the end of the road"
then he describe the house interior right away !
there's no way this fella has ever entered my cousin's house man...
so..wad made me changed my mind was when he started talkin bout my girlfriends.
he said this

i have 2...one of them i've already left.
and the other one is ending soon.
and there'll be another one coming.


this is just so wrong.
i haven't been two timing since 3 years ago i think.
definitely more than 1 year.
i've never cheated on princess.
and there's no way i'm gonna cheat on her.

that last one made like...wtf ?
and he just left me with curiousities instead of me believing in him.
one more shock was....
after he said those bout me and my gfs stuff and change my mind immediately
HE KNOWS THAT I DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM RIGHT AWAY !
wtf ?




now...can somebody explain this to me ?

the journey home.

it was on a hari raya
like usual, i didn't sleep the night before.
scared that i can't wake up and fuck myself at the ass again.
went out wif the guys for pool at parkway and a little xbox at cz's place the night before.
reached home and started to pack my things.
and for the very first time.
i was actually early !
as in...usually it'll be just nice.
like when i finish packing my stuff den i bathe and all..it'll be time to leave.
this time round i finish packing my stuff like so much faster.
for the first time i didnt haf to rush.

- sexyback playing at mah itunes -
- and it's getting hard for me to type now..i've grown like finganails at my last 3 fingers of my left hand and the last 2 fingers of my right hand and it's like alreadi so fuckin hard to type...i really wonder how those people that leave really long finganails type man coz mine is just like.......-

-like this-

okay...this shall be an entry of wad happen that day on my way back.
nothing much interesting except for the haze thou.
i see it at the sky level

so like usual...i left at bout 8.
strolling my laguages to the main road for a cab.
wad's diff this time round is that the nearby mosque has been "allah-ing" since like 6 or 7 can't really remember and dey didn't stop even after like 8+
i reach the main road to find my usual "wait for cab" place fully parked with cars.
no choice, i had to walk after the bus stop to wait.
let me sketch.

there you have it !
the arrows represent the path i walked wif my laguages.

okay, so i waited there after the bus stop and chun chun i flag the cab that time got bus come.
damn it.
then the taxi stop somemore.
i made the whole bus 109 wait for me to load my laguages into the cab before the driver can move like 1m more to open the door and release the frustated passengers.

*fast forward*

got problem at the immigration,
ushered to the office.
actually not a problem at all
coz i had a social visit pass for singapore till like 10 nov den the officer thought i'll be back home for a few days nia den my social pass will be like wasted so ask me go to the office to talk to the higher level officer.
den i onli haf to tell the nice officer that i'll only be back to singapore earliest by january
he chop chop chop and i'm off.

*fast forward*

board the ferry...
see the sky condition and window condition.
both sucked
i slept tru the way

upon reaching batam...
i dunno if its my fone or the fuktub inonesia mobile thing fucked up.
coz i can't fucking call out !
i'm suppose to meet this person i never meet before at the harbour to collect my air ticket.
i sms the woman like a zillion times and i mobile can't recieve any smses also !
i just kept dialing and dialing
frustated...
i dialed home, medan home.
called dad - can't get tru
called sis - can't get tru
called princess - got tru but she was still aslp den nv pick up
called house fone - GOT TRU and mum picked up.
den i heard dad shouting shouting at the background.
apparently, while i was busy redialing, there's this woman behind me that's like talking to dad and i realised it onli after listening to wad dad said and wad she replied.
anyway, took another taxi drive to the airport,
nice taxi driver...talked some inonesia politics tru the way.

* fast forward*

board the plane.
there's this old couple sitting beside me complaining about why the plane sells food on board instead of giving them for free.
"hello ~ its kinda a budget plane..and for all i know...all indo budget planes dun GIVE you things on board...they SELL you"

another nice thing is this...

garuda decorated their interior planes wif nice ketupats.
i shall try takin a flight during chinese new year and see if they'r being racist or not.

like usual again, i asked for the window seat so i could snap pics.
first fuktub thing.
the window sucked to the MAX.
and haze.
no nice pics at all !
batam is a chio city from the sky !
damn it.
i so wanted to take pics of batam again....
this is wad i got.

notice the haze ?
wait wait...another haze pic.

i could see the outline of clouds from afar...its onli when like the place is next to that cloud that i could take a pic of that cloud.

decided to sleep.
chun chun woke up when almost reach medan and got this pic.

not much haze.
beautiful skies again :D

been slacking these few days.
and dad's making me a white suit finally !
gonna start work by the 30th...


and 1 sad thing.
my gf for like 16 months thought my bdae is on the 30th.
i'm supposed to be angry at her right now.
but i just can't bring myself to do so.
miss her too much...
i forgive u,
one more time like that....
and we can see this relationship ending.
i guess you never know me at all.
well, can't blame you princess...
no one does.




p.s. nige, update me on the missing adam news.
and have fun at school sim mates =P

selamat hari raya idulfitri

to all my malay friends

selamat hari raya idulfitri minal aidil walfa izin
mohon maaf lahir dan batin

well, that's how we say it here :)



i'm back home to my paradise land once again.
update the on my trips soon.
it's gonna be about the blardy haze man.
took some pics :)

the jb trip

i woke up just now feeling like shit.
it's a feeling nobody likes.
you know the feeling as if you've done something terribly wrong but don't know what is it.
or the feeling that something's gonna go wrong.
that bad bad bad feeling, but you don't know what the fuck is wrong.

went to jb last night with the guys.
the very first time the 6 of us went to another country together.
it was great.
had a hell of a feast there....

and the aftermath...

played RM40 worth of fireworks..

it was great guys

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bought a new fragance for myself in taka yest,

mum gave me a $110 worth of gift voucher and i was wondering in taka for dunno how long and finally decided to buy my very first perfume.
i don't think i have body odour thou,
but just want to make myself smell nicer :)



anyway, bout how i'm feeling...
is it becoz that i'm going back medan and the fear that my student pass will be rejected ?
i don't fucking know.
is it because that i'll be leaving singapore this tuesday and that i just wasted my whole sunday by sleeping the whole freaking day ?
god damn it.
i hate this feeling.
tml's plan -
go plaza sing,
buy things for princess
try to find a present for sis
dinner wif cz and kelvin

then it's the same ordeal all over again,
me not sleeping packing my stuff the whole night
carry those heavy laguages to the main road
flag for a cab
go to habourfront
buy a ferry ticket
haf breakfast alone if got time
den reach batam
wait for dad's fren to pick me up
straight away go airport
check in
go to the waiting room
wait alone
board the plane
and home i come....
it'll either be bro wif the driver or dad wif bro or mom wif bro
since i'll be reaching on a tuesday
i think it's either mom or the driver that'll come

i feel like shit.
i have lots of friends around me.
i have a gf i love so much.
why do i still feel lonely sometimes eh.
like you know,
sitting at the hawker having lunch alone staring at couples eating happily together.
or simply
sitting right here wif 4 walls staring at me.

i will miss my freedom in medan.
but i definitely won't this room.


i'm tired of traveling like that.
it seems just not long ago that i went tru that and again...
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god damn it
i need you princess.
i need you right beside me right now.
i need your warm hug.
your gentle kisses.
i need your smile....

grossest thing i've ever seen

this will stop me from wanking for months !
god damn it.
my hair is still even standing.
for the weak hearts please dun watch.
for men...please go ahead and watch them :)
thanks wong huiqing for enlightening me on this.
now i'm thinkin twice to making out wif my gal on her bossom.
if you haven't have your meal, i suggest you go makan first before watching this.
i think everyone should watch it la.
but if ur heart not that power arh.
den dun ok,
i dun wanna take responsibility if you faint on the spot or wad la.
orh ya,
dun watch them immediately after your meal also,
i'm not gonna pay for a new keyboard if you vomit on them.

this one is not those clip where you watch den suddenli got people shout or wad one.
no no,
not like the other time k.
this one is EDUCATIONAL.
the fact about life.

if you watch them and not happy ah,
dun blame me ah
blame ms WONG HUIQING
she sent me the email one
den i watch
den i just buay tahan but to share them lah

oh ya,
change of schedule
i'm gonna be back home this tuesday, not sunday.
the ramadan coming,
flights are mostly fully booked
so no choice
going back on 24th october.
i guess this is finally the year that i'll be spending my birthday with my family at my side.
after 5 years straight.
and 2 only wif mum and sis.
sad sad life.


okay now GO WATCH
CLICK PLAY NOW !!!!!

zombie..

that is a completely unedited picture taken from my sony this morning of my eye.
kinda freaky eh.

i dun usually quote songs,
but this chorus here fits perfectly in me right now.
especially the 2nd sentence.


And, I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am.


the school's administrative stuff is over.
what's left to do in Singapore now ?
the blog design for dawsiree which i currently still have no inspiration yet.
another one or two design for bonkers pub namecard.
that last one is one hard one man.
i'll be off by sunday i hope.
that's when i told dad to buy me my ticket.

a few other things i wish i could do before i leave...
catch a sun set in singapore.
lepaking and just pure hardcore slacking like tomorrow doesn't matter for a night.




we live to pay our mortgage.
you study so you can have a future and then you're supposed to pay your parents back.
cause that is only right.
then you'll have a family...
and you'll have a bigger mortgage to pay.
your wife, kids, the bills, the car and so on.
we come from emptiness and will go back to emptiness.
why are we filling thing emptiness in between when it will completely forgotten when we finally lie there six feet under or when you're burned off to ashes ?

i don't understand why god create us...
may be we're just one of his experiments gone wrong.
that's why you see he seems to be further and further away from us day after day.
He created Adam, found out that he's a mistake, He then decided to create Eve so he wouldn't have to accompany Adam all His life cause simply killing Adam off is nothing god would do. Then that dumb Eve proves god right.
humans are His first mistake after creating light and all that.
that Eve go and eat that stuuuupid apple then they kana send to earth.
and we come out on this troubled planet.
another thought,
if Adam and Eve thing is right arrr...
how they produce siah ?
who thought them sex ?
did they had oral or not ah...
then ah...
means last time siblings also fuck each other one ah ?
tot know if u fuck your siblings your kid will have a high chance or retardedness ?
you see ah...


year 1

Adam fucks Eve

Eve got pregnant

Eve produces Ali Baba and Christy

year 2

rest

meanwhile Adam and Eve think about more sex positions.
that's why you get all those doggystyle and so on.

year 3

Adam fucks Eve again

Eve got pregnant

Eve produces Ahmad, Bubu and Susan

year 4

Ali, Baba and Chirsty is 3 years old

Adam and Eve slack


*fast forward*

year 15

Ali, Baba and Christy is now 14 years old
they start having hair growing up there and down there
and they ask Adam and Eve
and Adam told them
"now that you have hairs down there, you now are suppose to cover them with a leaf just like me"
their hormones start raging up

year 16

Adam and Eve begin their first sex education to Ali, Baba and Christy
Adam did so by showing how he got Eve pregnant
Eve got pregnant in the show
Eve produces Susi and Siti

year 17

Ali fucks Christy
Christy got pregnant
Christy produces a retarded child named Patrick

*fast forward*

so it means...
everybody is cousins and siblings ah ?





i so need her by me right now

never this pain

FUCK
i had an extremely terrible cough yesterday
and i just got better.
and also yesterday,
the day i found out my student pass kana rejected and that i'll be defered to january.
meaning, i'll have to settle lots of fucking administrative issues with the ICA and the school.
plus some financial issues.

well, the administrative stuff i can handle.
perfectly i can do them well.
i've got no fucking problem with that.

i've just recovered slightly better.
okay, just to the point.
i wanna vent my anger, my frustation.

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING BOTHER ME ON MONEY MONEY MONEY
SINCE LAST NIGHT U NEVER EVEN ASK ABOUT MY SCH ISSUES
JUST MONEY
I WAS SICK
AND HAD LOTS OF FUCKING THINGS TO THINK OF
YOU THINK I DON'T FUCKING CARE ?
ITS MY FUCKING FUTURE GOD DAMN IT
I JUST SEE HOW I FUCK MY LIFE AT THE ASS AGAIN
YOU DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME TIME TO BREATHE AND KEPT BOMBARING ME WITH QUESTIONS
FUCK
I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO THINK OF THAN MONEY
WAIT..YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU MY PROBLEMS ?
FUCK YOU
ITS TOO GOD DAMN LATE
YOU TWO HAVE LEFT ME ALONE ALL THESE WHILE AND NOW..YOU ASK ME TO SHARE MY PROBLEMS WITH YOU ?
FUCK
YOU SHOULD HAD ASKED SINCE I WAS 10
NOT WHEN I'M FUCKING 19
I BUILD EVERY SINGLE SHIT MYSELF. ALONE GOD DAMN IT
I BUILD MY WALLS SLOWLY
AND NOW YOU WANT TO BREAK IN AND INTRUDE MY PERSONAL LIFE
WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU TWO WHEN I WAS CRYING MISSING YOU WHEN YOU FIRST LEFT ME HERE ?
YOU DIDN'T EVEN CALL
YOU NEVER EVEN CALL
I GUESS YOU HAD INVESTED YOU MONEY TO THE WRONG CHILD
I'M A FUCKING FAILURE
AND I STILL THINK THAT IT'S YOUR FAULT THAT WE ARE LIKE THIS TODAY
ITS YOUR FAULT THAT I FEEL I CAN'T BE CLOSE TO MY PARENTS LIKE OTHER KIDS
YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO LET A FUCKING REBELLIOUS TEENAGER BOY TO BE BROUGHT UP BY SOMEBODY ELSE
YES OF COURSE YOU LOVE ME
YOU GIVE ME MONEY
YOU SEND ME OVERSEAS SO I CAN HAVE A BETTER FUTURE
BUT WHAT THIS KID EXACTLY NEED IS YOUR PRESENCE
BEING THERE WHEN HE NEEDS
AND YOU NEED TO FUCKING KNOW
DURING MY TEENAGE LIFE
YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME ANYTHING
AT LEAST THE MAJOR PART OF ME THAT MAKE ME WHO I AM TODAY IS NOT TAUGHT BY YOU
I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF MYSELF
I LEARNT ABOUT LIFE MYSELF
YOU TAUGHT ME NOTHING ABOUT LIFE
DON'T YOU FUCKING INTRUDE MY LIFE FOR THAT

indonite 2006 Dark Chocolat

i was at hilton hotel, 24th floor last night.
the event ?
indonite 2006
Dark Chololat
with Kevin Ohara ( not sure if this is how to spell his name ) as the MC.
it's a party for indonesians !
the outcome ?
personally i think it kinda rocks.
thou some part of it seriously suck.

there were prom king and queen.
with special appearances of Miss Indonesia Earth 2006 ( i talk to her =P, thou haven't got a chance to take a shot wif her :( )
and Singapore Idol Wannabe Steven Lim that seriously gave me goosebumps all over.
beatbox performances
breakdance...
and also
spinning at the table was
DMC champion DJ Inquisitive ( not sure right or not the spelling )
and MOS very own DJ, DJ Rattle.

lots of prizes was given out.
and i was helping out at the prize thing...

the organisers ?
Azhar, Budi and Riswanti
Azhar and Ris are my friends, the one that invited me there too.
that kept on inviting....
KEPT ON INSISTING ME TO GO.
well, i guess i had no regrets going...

the event started 2 hours late...

they were selecting Mr. Charming guy...
they had Miss Earth Indonesia, Miss Yelena to sit in the middle of the stage.
the guys ?
they were suppose to seduce her.
ALVET WAS THERE !
and he was up, by popular demand to be one of the charming guy...
they were to walk around the stage, seducing her
and at the end of it,
they were suppose to come out with their best pick up line.
alvet's was...i forgotten...
but he didn't win
he was just the 1st runner up
thou i personally think that he shld win
his pick up line lost to a guy that said
"i don't think you're indonesian, you must be from pearl habour, coz you're the BOMB !"
er......

then there were Muscleman too.
with Steven Lim, Singapore Idol wannabe performing.
asking them to dance with him.
HE WAS FUCKINGLY DOWN TO HIS UNDERWEAR MAN !

GOSH !
he stripped down to his underwear !
then the gals all shout !!!!
and finally the MC asked him to censor a bit la...
so he bo pian...

but when the musclemen came back to change after changing...
they were suppose to go down to singlet
but who would ?
they basically just take out their suit and wear them over
it was time for Steven Lim to dance with them...

i think he seriously is William Hung wannabe more to Singapore Idol wannabe.
a fucking disgrace to singaporean man.
he sang she bangs just like William Hung..

then there were beatbox performances...
which is great too.
except for the guy who keep saying
"check this"
i thought its suppose to be
check this out ?








after Dark Chocolat, they were settling the bills and stuff while some of us went to the hotel room.
the plan was to MOS after that.
we waited at the room.

this shot looks as if Azhar is getting married or wad..
having his mother wearing the suit for him.
LOL


Ministry Of Sound !
i must admit,
it was my first time there.
and at my first time there.
i was ushered with Azhar and the guys to......
SKY LOUNGE.
the famous sky lounge.

Azhar, who brought me in.
thanks Riswandi for the Martell...
it cured my sore throat somehow.
but fuck...now i 'm down with dry cough and flu !
god damn it !

the only daughter

being an only child is definitely the most fortunate situation to be borned in.
my sis, thou not only child, is the only daughter of my parents.
and my only sister too.
it just suprise me to how far a parents can love the "only" child/son/daughter.

20th nov, my sis 17th birtday.

a year older,
a year where she'll begin to be known as a young adult.
and she is asking a grand celebration for it.
guess what...
dad said yes.

wtf ?

i've never remember any year of my life that both my parents actually celebrate my birthday with me.
it's either i'm not in indonesia, or it'll just be with mum.
i can't remember anything special about my birthday prior to primary 5 where i first began my journey of studyin overseas.
besides, i can only remember clearly about my life when i began studying in penang.
only bits and pieces here and there before that.
my very first birthday that i remembered wasn't great too.
i remembered having a quarrel wif sis that morning.
it was just me, sis and i living in that flat that we rented somewhere in Farlim.
may be i was borned emotional.....i don't know but i do think that i'm an emo person
as if it was yesterday.....
i was bathing after the quarrel.
my tears flow along sight the water.....
after that i think mum just bought me to Lucky Plaza
let me play some arcade...it is also where Rebecca met me and gave me a pen that i've never used and is still with me.
besides, i still hoped that next day was my birthday.
ming yeow bought me a gk jersey
ali tanin and i went to the tailor to let him stitch my name with the number "1" behind
everything is still well kept guys.
and bla bla bla bla

anyway, back to my sis
so she'll be having a grand bdae parteee
in a restaurant
with quite a well known local mc
and wanted me back home for that night
dad and i had a talk this morning
and i asked him will i be going home
its not that really want to go home nor i don't wanna go home
to me,
going home just for 1 night will be kind of just a waste of $
and it'll be extremely tiring.
but....
"what can i do ? she's my only daughter"
and i know i'll be flying back on the 18th of November just to attand to my sis' party at 7p.m. and fly back to singapore on the 19th.

i asked her
"does my presence to your bdae this time really important ?...u're ok with the past few years"
on msn just now
and she said
"OF COZ!!"

that's enough to make my night.
thou you're becoming more and more like mum, the naggings...
but..
no matter how tired i will be,
i'll be there that night.
coz..
you're my only sister
and i love you





your next birthday will be so beautiful i'm gonna make you soo touched till you cry !
princess...prepare =P
this is the 2nd thing that i've always dreamt of to do with someone i really truely love with.
the first was that candles.
this will be the second thing.
something that i've kept since ages ago...
i've decided to do it with YOU !



to do list :
- finish name card + blog design for dawsiree.
- design invitation cards for sis.



woodlands town garden.


not a beautiful place,
just that bridge over the lake is great.
nothing caught my eye except for that.

out of debt !

finally !
on the 6th October 2006, Mr. President Susilo Bambang Yudohyono can fully concentrate himself on improving Indonesia and worrying about paying our debts because....

INDONESIA HAS FINALLY PAID OF ALL HER DEBTS...

wohooooo

what a news :)

after all those years of owning $$ to other countries.

now this is improvement !




beautiful :)

my new sony vs my old canon

of coz sony wins....
7MP vs 4MP ?
plus sony has image stabilization and all...
but anyway.
canon wins at 1 thing.
at night.
sony sux in low light condition.
the rest...sony thumbs up.

since using sony...
i kinda feel i dun even need to edit the colours of the pic anymore.
below are pics taken using both canon and sony.
all unedited.

i'm still amazed on how close you can take a pic with sony t30 man...





u can see the reflection on what i take with rite ?
lol...





sony is so much sexier, slimmer and beautiful :)

alright...
here are the macros.

taken with sony T30...



with canon ixus 400
this is as far as u can get and still it's blur !



this is by no doubts is with sony...



can you see the dates inside ?



every since i come back...
i was like a bit bcomin religious and stuff
like listening to chants to sleep and all...
anyway,

this is a book that i think all buddhist should read !

definitely will open ur eye to buddhism to a new level.
it's a great read.
story type.
and am still tryin to apply what i teaches.

a quote from the book that inside is also quoted from somewhere else...

"you will pass through stroms, and you may suffer defeat. the essence of the creative life, however, is to persevere in the face of defeat and to follow the rainbow within your heart. indulgence and indolence are not creative. complaints and evasions are cowardly, and corrupt life's natural tendency towards creation. the person who gives up the fight for creativeness is headed ultimately for the hell that destroys all life."

it teaches you to see life in a new perpective.
fucking good read.

the haze.

okay, before YOU FUCKERS blame indonesians and all about the haze.
let's make this fucking clear.
i am an Indonesian and am also in this place i call hell i.e. Singapore suffering the same fucking hazy problems like YOU DO.
point a finger at us, and 3 points back at you.
point all your fingers at us, and you're fuckingly starting a war with us for not all of us are to be blame.
you say we're fucking stupid, never learn our lessons etc etc.
don't singapore have mirror ?
can't you fucking look at your own fucking country first before you criticize about others.
yes, we might be not as great as this tiny little dot island as you are.
but your country ain't doing that great either.
and honestly, i still can't believe your government has to help with even such a personal simple matters such as marriage and has to campaign here and there.

indonesia is big,
singapore is just a dot.
a lake in my small hometown is already enough to swallow up the whole of singapore.
all lee kuan yew did was to manage a small little dot like you while our president mr bang bang has to manage a top 10 biggest country in the world.
our economy corrupts, one of our ex president is partially blind, one of them can't even speak indonesian language properly and one is a fat bitch who wept when she was taken down.
chinese there is only about 3% of indonesia's population but dominates most of the business sector and still the majority of indonesians can't accept us.
lots of fucking problems yes i know.
we're not as great as you are neihter are we as small as you are.
try comparing managing a grp of 2 people compared with managing a grp of 2000 people.

back to the hazy problem,
yeah...we burn down trees the size of singapore at once coz it's so much easier and much much less costly than cutting them down one by one.
we never think about you and what you had done to help us bla bla bla...
i thought singapore is suppose to be a civilised country ?
the trees were burned illegally,
you can't stop illegal activities in any country man...
even in this dot itself,
smugglin of ciggarettes is so fucking high.
almost $1m worth eh...?
don't blame us...
blame the manager !
mr bang bang you d'oh ! oh no....
i must admit thou,
ever since he became our president...indonesia is doin much better.
lesser corruption, lesser illegal stuff.
i myself see it changing.
on the other hand,
ever since he became our manager,
disasters came one after one
flood, earthquakes, tsunami and now the fucking haze that have to affect neighbouring countries.
however,
you have to climb the stairs of success a step at a time or you'll trumble over.
he is, i believe and from what i'm seeing.
well may be he hasn't move on to this burning down of trees thing and for that...
FUCK YOU BANG BANG.
FUCK YOU.
do something quick and right asshole.
the country is dying piece by piece already.

corruption has been around since the birth of indonesia,
you can't change a habit overnight.
meaning, even lee kuan yew can't change indonesia overnight.
for a country as big as us,
it'll take years...
how long did YOUR COUNTRY take to be like what you are today ?
you're a small dot.
us progressing like this is considered fast alreadi man.

don't you fucking blame us.
blame the assholes that burn the trees down.
the rest of us...
don't you fucking dare touch them.
a bomb from us is enough to make this dot on the map disappear.
oh no wait,
we have no money for the bomb...
hermm...
nevermind, wad say the whole of indonesia's population march into singapore ?
no matter how much your ammunition is..you'll never be fast enough to kill us all...
you'll still die anyway.

"Firefighters in Indonesia said they were working 24 hours a day to douse the illegally set land-clearing blazes, while students handed out masks to protect residents from the acrid haze that has darkened skies over 557,000 square kilometers of land."
quoted from www.thejakartapost.com

we're worst than you over there.

the air hear is still of moderate standard while over there it's alreadi unhealthy.
and our firemen there are already working 24/7
it's not like we're not doing anything down there and wait for your help

NOT AGAIN !!!!

i seriously fucking wonder how you people who hate these noise put up with this !

wadeva idol...

okay, i'm like fucking late about this stuff.
singapore idol and indonesia idol.
wait wait....has the singapore idol 2 finish ?
or they haven't even start ?
how come there are like not hype like when taufik and that slyv ?
hmm...i don't know i don't fucking watch tv.

anyway,
i was damn fucking bored.
so i youtubed singapore idol auditions and indonesia idol auditions.
guess what.
WOHOO
this is solely my opinion nia and from what i've watch k.
indonesia idol is SOOO SOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING MUCH BETTER !
wohhooo
i'm not being nationalist or what coz i myself don't watch indonesia idol when i was home.
the auditions...
wtf ?
singaporeans ?
wtf ?
there was this wad
kungfu boy and cowboy wad wad ?
wtf was that ?
i wonder how fucking thick their skin is.

thou of coz indonesia idol has this kind of stupid fuckers,
they are not as lame as the one in singapore idol.
seriously,
i watched the worst and lamest of indonesia idol,
some asshole wore sarong there and did a traditional dance !
omfG !

indonesia idol man !!!
princess, no way you can compete with them !
may be if you come over here may be got a higher chance la.
but in indo..no no =P
hahahaha
but of coz dear,
give it a go if you want to :)

that kung fu boi of singapore idol seriously made my hair stand till now...
it's like 20 mins after that.
i think i'm gonna haf a nightmare.

being recognised

it's not so bad after all.
yeah,
bout being recognised.

just like juz now.
while collecting the notes.
everyone is suppose to line up.
and when that sock cheng saw me.
she immediately called me up and pass me my notes.
cut queue =D

and also,
there's this hawker stall that i regularly ta pao my dinner from.
no matter how long the queue is,
when i order,
she'll cook mine first.
another =D

anyway,
been more into photography recently,
don't know why.
i even am lazy to do photoshop now.
instead of taking the bus to the mrt station,
i'd walk now...
just to spot on any nice photographic material on the street.
i so want A100 !!!!

check this out...
was on my way to the mrt station to meet the guys and found this.
quite artistic to my eye.
i so want A100 !!!!


# a moment of peace


# i am different !


# waiting patiently

shot that at bugis while waiting for cz, the late king !

# crystalise by nature