oh no...oh nooooooo

dad is not coming.
and i'm lacking of funds to last till 15th sept.
i was thinkin i'd stay till that day to see wad supp paper it'd take.
NOOOOOO.
i was hoping dad will come so i can ask $$ from him.
>.<
now i think i haf to be back by the 5th.
and come back for supp.
darn.
gonna get another scolding.
oh, please confirm the dates of the chalet a.s.a.p
so i can arrange when i do haf to be back exactly.

chalet, how ? how ? how ?

how come like suddenly no news bout the chalet ?
huh ?
oi oi oi !
who's organising it.

from me.
i can ask my fren to book the changi seaview.
but must book 4 days straight.
price i duno.
and if wanna ask him book.
haf to ask NOW.
coz there'll be 1 week working time.
after 1 week then can confirm we get the chalet or not.

if dun wan that.
can somebody go book aloha already ?

from the signatures the other day that dawn passed around,
i counted like there are about only 25 people that kinda confirm can come.
the rest all depends first.
and most of the chinese and vietnamese are leaving like soon.
more than 50% leaving on 3rd / 5th going back to their country.


so how how how how ?

oh yea,
and i'm available only until the 8th.
my dad coming on the 8th.
so it's kinda impossible to go when dad's here.
but i can still visit the chalet but no staying over lah..

all the very extremely best to the revisioners :)

happiest guy on earth TODAY !

so finally i can study in ease.
worrying about i can take the exam or not is over.
now 's the time to worry about how to study everything.
5 subs.
i have to pass ALL.

results' out.
i think i did better than i expected.

otqm - D
bf - C+
bl - B
imec - B
macro - Z

so...
i finally can mug in peace :)
guess the sleepless nights for worrying has just end.
now it'll be sleepless nights for studying !
study hard all sim mates !

worried sick.

i can't study at all.
i just stare at those macro notes that's on my table.
what's this.
it's 4 a.m.
i took a nap this afternoon.
hoping i could study tru tonight regardless of my condition right now.
this time...
i'm scared.
i'm afraid.

why i'd remember YOU !

i don't know if i can come out with 65 names.
but i'll try my best to come up with all that's in my mind right now.

1. melly : no comment.

2. ellyn : "stress" "stress" "stress" first day of class also stress already. but end up always get good grades. always.

3. alvet : you're one nice fella. that's all i can really say. don't really know you much. we never hang out..but sportive also.from the marketing project.always rushing to go off.dunno go where.

4. alpino : anti-social and smart. nuff said.

5. handi : ur deep voice of course !

you guys are the best !

now it's in random order.
it's not who i prefer or wadeva.
i'm refering to the blur class pic.

6. hui qing : CK and WILSON ! short skirt

7. WILSON : you're good in everything man.bowling badminton...u everyday train one arh.

8. sulyn : ahem praveen ahem....

9. stefanie : that smile :) u have an amazing smile.

10. furnise : eh...u damn loud u know.

11. eugene aw : the dragon leg of our class and always young at heart ah.

12. kelvin : sure will remember you man.i've got a close friend name chuanzhi too, drunkard. and don't let me catch u with caroline ah !

13. caroline : illigal immigrant. HAHAHAHHA. and what's with u and yating ah.

14. yating : the china doll of our class ! u're terribly afraid of cats ! i wonder why.

15. jean : i think u shld let us sign that hand cast !

16. lydia : f.i.r song title. and u drew me from the back ah in sem 1.nothing better to do ah.

17. denise : i know u received a warning later from fabious.

18. fabious : too bad you ain't fabulous at all. i don't know it's just u or u're always hao lian-ing lah.

19. zhicao : thanks for the movies !

20. ria : wet dreams gal, wet dream. =x

21. luiza : is that how to spell ur name ? u're nice. i think we've never talk before prior to tday.

22. dawn : hi, how are you ?

i saw dawn
it made me yawn
whenever i see dawn
i can't help but yawn

rhytme ah...i know its lame but it rhymes ! and i don't mean it k.

23. deborah gan : u shocked me when u spoke indo to me.u're a good gal.

24. chan min : do take care of her yeah. and the badminton cum dinner sessions were fun ! we shall do it even after the classes end yea ?

25. praveen : dude, is that something wrong wif ur camera or wad ? anyway, u're a nice guy too. and i know, u' always have ur own opinion bout things and will stand up for it.

26. hem : hardworking smart ass guy.

27. ridzwan : again, i don't know how to spell ur name lah. another hardworking guy !

29. vivian : the jaguar !

30. jack : this guy super hardworking ah.and stop smashing everybody ! badminton again ?

31. jacquline : from the pic below of coz ! i don't even remember had we ever talk before. but that pic sure will remind me of u ! what a pose !!!

32. cara : wad's wif the parading of ur relationship around the sch ah ?

33. aparna : the mother of our class :)

34. deborah : you are....ermmmm.....i don't know..but i'll remember you somehow.you're christie's friend i know.

35. cathrine : i don't know, but it seems like u suddenli turn 180 after that break up. to the better of course !

36. the other eugene : gamer. shall i say...the playboy too ? were you ever serious at all ?

37. amanda : never got the chance to really know you, but u seems like the type that knows how to have fun !

38. ray : i owe u a lot man. u're the best. take care of melly man.well, u better !

39. ashton : italy !! another person i wish i'd know better. u seem like a really nice guy.

40. irene : the korean gal ! thanks for the rain songs.

41. desiree : sorry des, but i really don't know what to say about u leh. one thing is, thank you for the birthday cake :) i'll always remember that.

42. hui ying : you're a nice gal i know..and it was really great having the chance to be in the same grp as u.

43. pauline : religious.

44. zann : hermmmmm...another person i don't know what to say about.but i sure will remember u...since i remember ur name afterall !

45. dat : the quietest guy in the class. and extremely a marvelous artist !

46. wei loon : i think u're one of the best public speaker in the class man. extremely confident.

47. nikki : dota gal ! hahaha

not bad ah...i thought i wouldn't even manage to write to 20 names.
seems like i remember more than half of our class ppl names after all.
really sorry for those names i can't remember or i missed.
really got problem remembering names lah.
i know it's been a year and it's unforgivable.
but i'm really terribly sorry.
oh yeah,
what say we do things like we do in the secondary sch.
back then, i used my uniform and go around the sch and ask all those i know to sign on them.
since we don't have a uniform.
what say each of us just find a good nice looking paper and ask everyone to sign instead ?
or we can use a book too !
i'm gonna do it.
who's with me ?

the class' ending.
they say,
for every beginning,
there's an ending.
but i say,
let this ending.
be the beginning.
for our friendships.

well, that was for most of u who i haven't really got the chance to know and yeah..for the weird things that's been happening lately.
where suddenly we talk as a group.
where all suddenly all the outings come out.

melly : you're the best :)
my aunty in class.
what would i do without ur nagging man.
you really had helped me a lot in the books thing.
oh yeah,
anyway,
can lend ur macro notes again ?
pleasee....
you're simply the best.



























i love you princess.
please take care.
this heart aches to see u in pain.
please don't bring school stress home.
i don't want you to be like dad.
please don't.

buat anak medan.

buat anak medan di penjuru dunia mana saja
visit.
http://medan.sytes.net
forum spesial buat anak medan doank !
register - join and meet new friends there !

i'm sorry..but i can't help it.

i was going tru the class pics praveen sent us.
and the few shots i took myself the other day.







nobody like take pic for him,
i take for him lah.
thx, cameraman.
for the blurly pic.
and the intention is really greatly appreciated.

that's not the thing.
there's something very funny at the shot i took below.




















WTF ?





















sorry,
i'm so so sorry.
but...
HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
I JUST CAN'T HELP IT LAH
I'M SORRY





oh yea,
there's a plan that there'll be a class chalet after the exams.
indos and foreigners of the class.
dun so fast book yer tic arh.
don't finish exam then the next day go home alreadi.
stay a while chill out.
the plan was,
dawn will tell the rest of the class.
desiree and zhicao will book the chalet.
oh yea,
i just remembered i got a friend in the SAF.
and i asked him if he can book for us.
the changi one.
he said he not sure.
coz he officer only,
but he'll try to find out.


















i think i'm losing it.
i can't put u at ease anymore.
u told me i used to make u happy.
bring u up when u're down.
make u luff when u're sad.
ease your thoughts when u haf too much to think.
i'm sorry princess.
i don't know what's wrong.
it seems that i'm using the same words over and over again too.
but i can't think of any other.
i need a break.
i want to go home.
i need to meet you.

class dmsft minus the extra

to....

to yani,
happy birthday.
sorry to disturb ur sleep.

18th aug.

to lia,
happy birthday too !
and sorry again to disturb ur sleep !

today !

to princess,
i love you !
and i hope i can spent every single of ur birthday every single year wif u !



it happen so fast don't it ?
it was june...
and i entered this new class.
amazed to see how many people in it.
and i knew,
these people are gonna be my classmate for the next 15 months.
and it's at the end of the 15th month.
the class has been amazing.
anyway,
it was a weird weird day yesterday.

firstly,
badminton
bowling
pool
and dinner

enjoyed myself a lot.
in this year,
i haven't been really going out wif you guys.
and yesterday was the best !

and at night,
the strangest of all.

EVERYBODY LOVES DAWN !!! says :
how are you ?

....wtf ?
some frens only talk to me to say these thing...

"eh can send me this song ?"

or

"u got this song ?"

or

ask some sch related question.

and yesterday mass chat still feels weird.
but good.

i thought,
we are not all friends.
as in..there is 60+ of us.
i thought,
yeah...
i thought we will only click wif those we spent time wif during this year.
but yesterday seriously prove me wrong.
it was when praveen went in front of the class and asked everyone to stay back for a class pic,
i admit,
that was really the best time i had in the class.
to see everyone so united.
i was completely amazed.
that some of u went back in the class.
if not only for that fuktub extra patrick no brain,
that pic would haf been GREAT.

yesterday must have been the best patrick lesson ever.
simply becoz he don't lecture at all !
wohoo.

anyway,
24th...
the last day of sch
why don't everyone come...
and lets take a full class pic eh ?
ask lynn's darling meng meng to take for us ?
wad say you ?

er...

for sim mates,

good luck,
god bless,
all the best,
for the 12th day,
from today.


and for princess,

always,
am missing you,
and loving you,
for you,
are the best gift god has given me.

MERDEKA !!! MERDEKAAAA !!!

this will be the very first time ever i'll try to blog in bahasa indo.

duh...susah juga.
yeah, ri ni hari kemerdekaan !
so,
SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN INDONESIAKU TERCINTAAAA...





INDONESIA ~ tanah airku
tanah tumpah darah kuuu
disanalahh
aku berdirii
di pandu ibukuuu
INDONESIAA !!
kebangsaanku...
.
.
.
.
.
.
INDONESIA RAYA ! MERDEKA MERDEKA !!
HIDUPLAH.....



DAMN IT !
er...apa lagi ya
gw ga pernah ikut upacara punya waktu sd.
jadi...
apa lagi ya...
lupa lagunya
duh..

lagu berikutnya..

tujuhbelas agustus tahun empat limaa
itulah hari kemerdekaan kitaaa
hariii.....
satu dan padu...

shit...
lupa lagi...


udalah nvm
gw tadi nge browse browse poto president kita ni
bapak doktor susilo bambang yudhoyono.
eh...

yg gw dapat malah ini..




bapak president kita berpesta meria dengan org batak
-.-"

dan ini..



bercucuk tanam dengan petani.
duh..
pak pak..
bukannya bapak punya lebih banyak masalah ketimbang bernari2 dan bertani2 ?
turunkan tu harga bbm kek
ato damaikan lah indonesia kita.

anyway,
MERDEKA !

narcism over the years.

firstly,
i'd like to say.
i've cleaned up the spider webs at www.propertyofb.blogspot.com
and they are UP again !
again,
most of my photoshop works can be found there.
and i accepted the challenge from www.imaginationofemma.blogspot.com
she wanna challenge me editting skills leh.
*scared*

i was browsing tru my photobucket account.
and found the pics of me !
so yeah,
narcism over the years !





i must be damn bored lah.



THAT'S ME AND SIS !



will be there in 20 days time.
which means.
EXAMS IS IN LESS THAN 20 DAYS TIME.
OMFG.



driving the old car.
it's sold :(
so much memories with that car.



this is my dad's old car.
before he changed to vios.
it's also the first car i drove.



THAT IS IN MY SIS ROOM.
pinkies and dollies.



i'm gonna grow grow them again.



ermm....





I MISS THAT HAIR.


behold...
this is the very best pic.



AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA



think i'm growing the hair again.
then can make this






miss them.



study study study.
good luck cz !

another skin design !

yeah..so i finally got time to change the layout of mag's blog.
check it out at.
www.magdalane.blogspot.com

all done by ME !
yesh ME ME ME ME ME !

guess i kinda know how to play around with the html codes and stuff.

anyway,
my bone's in pain.
damn it.

let me confess.
i am DAMN SCARED that my hand will fail me.
damn it.
there's still much things to touch..no no..so much things to DO.yes DO.
i still wanna do sports that need hand.
anyway i'm a goalkeeper !
no hand = lau ia keeper.
noo...

2 hours of badminton and the bone is already crying in pain.
damn it man...
need to drink more milk already.
need more calcium.


come to think of it.
i can only play like 2 frames max of bowling, carrying the ball size 10.
that's how weak this fuktub hand is after the fuktub accident.

please don't fail me..
please don't...




to the INDOs out there in singapore.
there'll be an indonite on the 14th october.
since i'll already be back on by the 5th sept.
i won't be there.
but if you're still interested.
tic is $65.
promise - there'll be a hell of fun there !
so..mail me if you're interested.





this is the last night of waiting princess !
YAY !
i SO SO SO miss you !

in pain...

omfg...
it was just a two hours badminton.
and i didn't even really stretch a lot.
didn't stretch as much as the other time i was playin wif ray and melly.
and now my whole right side of my body is in pain.
wth ?
like my right shoulder and right leg are all in pain.
weak :(
and now i can't even photoshop.
wtf.
can't properly control the mouse.
it's that bad.
been 1 week since i photoshop leh.
and now can't even do in ease.






so so wanna meet you princess.

i need help !

okay...i need 8 people's back.
head to toe pic.
walking away kinda pic lah.
can send one by one also no prob.
dun need see face.
need at least 4 people to wear long pants.
can you be one of dem ?
send me ur pic at skyh34d@yahoo.co.uk now now now NOW !
go do some cam-whoring.
only this time its ur back only.
do any post u want.
wanna jump around.
wanna summersault also can.
as long as it's from the back only.
ermm...as the reward.
u'll get featured in my upcoming poster.
it's about 70% sure that princess is gonna use my work.
so...
COME ON LA..
HELP ME LA...
PLEASEEEEEE.







it's gonna be 14 months princess.
loving you as always :)

it's been...

SO MUTHER FUCKING BUSY.

orh yea,
FUCK YOU PATRICK NO BRAIN.
AND FUCK YOU TOO TAN buay SONG ah MENG.
er...i dun hate u thou tan.
you just can't cut my group mark like that la.
come on ar...
pan can ar..
come on arr....

anyway,
i so wanna sleep.

i need A LOT OF sleep.
I SO NEED A LOT A LOT A LOT OF SLEEP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm going mad.



and that china woman.
ni na beh.
YOU TALKING OR ANGRY-ING WITH YOUR BRO.
NA BEH.
TALK ALSO MUST SHOUT.
I ON SONG ALREADY STILL CAN HEAR UR VOICE.
HEADACHE.
CHAO CHEE BYE.
LATER I ON SONG TOO LOUD U KAO PEH.
KNOCK DOOR ASK ME DIAM DIAM.
NOW U OUTSIDE SHOUT SHOUT.
YOU SHOULD DIE SOON.
or no.
if u die den i cannot stay here already.
hermmm...
GO HAVE SOME SEX LA.
and i'd rather wank than doing it with you.







i miss you A LOT.
YES YOU !
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU.
princess :)

maintaining another blog !

check out : www.magdalane.blogspot.com
it's an indo blog thou,
a blog i helped to set up for her.
who also danced in the vids below !

entertainment.

i was damn damn damn bored some time ago.
may be like last sem or wad.
and was about to clean my room from the mess.
so...
i wore my shoe.
on some music.
and dance....





okay that was fucked up.
lol.
here's the real dancing.
it was princess' high school farewell party.
now, why can't tks had such a great farewell party.
damn it man.

introducing....
KB DANCERSSSSSSSSSSS.




they danced for the opening of the farewell dinner.
and here again,
KB DANCERSSSSSSSSS.



they had really good singers too.
this guy,
william tandean.
has really a god damn power voice.
i kinda feel his version of wo ai de ren is better than jordan chan's.
of course got some part not very nice la.
but if he'd practise more...
he'll beat jordan's wo ai de ren in no time man.



and of course,
princess.
thou she didn't had time to practise that time.
and just recovered from her flu.
i still feel her voice is damn lovely :).




you're my best princess.
miss ya !

a good laugh at dumb peter.

woman,
as explained by engineers.
*no offence to woman.













thx to elynn and mel who sent me this mail.
well, i guess everyone need a little good laugh with all the stress :)
anyway, luckily ur name is Jude DoOd !!
HAHAHAH


i just screwed my macro test 2 today.
now...
can i even get a D ?
hermmmmmmmm





need you by me,
love.

poster ?

damn...i don't even know if this is a poster or wad.
and i wanted to do 3 ?
omfg.
i can only come out wif 1.
and i'm also not very satisfied with this one.
the background colour sucks.
the rest i'm quite happy with thou.
anyway here it is.

my first draft.



large : http://i50.photobucket.com/albums/f316/herbertism/poster1grunge.jpg

click on the link.
you gotta view large for the full quality and details eh.



large : http://i50.photobucket.com/albums/f316/herbertism/2nddraftposter.jpg

the colour sux !

damn it.

2 or more to make.
don't even know if i'll have the time.









sorry princess.
been cracking for ideas all the way while waiting for you.
sorry.

schedule from 5/8 to 12/8

5/8 sat.
- QTQM meeting.
- 3 or more posters for princess (intensive photoshoping and brain cracking for ideas).
*if selected, my work be all over one of the top uni in jakarta !
woHOOoo !!
wish me luck!!!!!!

6/8 sun.
- intensive study for macro test 2.

7/8 mon.
- macro test2.
- imec & BL meeting.

8/8 tues.
- imec & BL meeting.

9/8 wed (spore's national day).
- finish report for bl.

10/8 thurs.
- hand up bl report.
- finish report for imec.
- intensive bf last min study.

11/8 fri.
- hand up imec report.
- bf test.
- finish qtqm report.

12/8 sat.
- hand up qtqm report.
- extreme slacking.

what a motherfucking stressful week ahead.
god damn it.
too intensive.
mad.
sleepless nights ahead !


oh yea,
i need ideas for the poster too.
it's an economic fair.
got seminars.
bazaar.
and the buy and sell of used books.
tag me !










hold on my princess.
work will be over by the 13th.
just 2 days time !
and photoshop is not that hard.
eh..it's ur love's most mastered program leh !

a composition after a year.

say..it's been almost a year since i write a compo.
i was browsing over my pictures folders.
singapore 2000 - 2004.

well, actually just the last few years la.

here are most of them.

the labourdor ? camp.
okay okay.
i don't fucking know how to spell it.
labedor.
labodor.
ah..fuck it.


DOOD ! nige was so cute !!!
and that's "wen bo" "china tone" the tallest fella in e pic.
e other guy who had the head accident....forgot ur name.
sorry.
we were never in the same class.
or...had we ever talk ?


that's mE !
me okay !
that's my fila shoe there !
and i saw poh down there taking the pic when i look down moments later.
can still remember it !
poh in that sleeveless gray tee.


before the rock climbing
ermmm.....can see cz and i inside.


CZ !!
HAHAHA


some anonymous mad fella =x
that's ashleeeey yo !


adam's afraid of heights.

then there was canoeing.




molesting adam.


then molesting poh.
he must be happy.............................................
if only we knew.

TAMAN NEGARA !
the most unforgettable event in my life. EVER !
okay may be SO FAR !
wif my frens one la.


boon : eh i help you.
nevermind.
boon *fell* : wa...heng my watch nv fall.

did he say something like that ?
i just know he kept trying to help people but in the end he keeps falling too.

and there was a fellow who made funny noises in the camp wif kelvin.
hermmmmmm......
what were they thinking man.






you guys are the best !
baldies.


during national day celebration :)
boris ! whatever happen to you ?


my class !


that gal is not my gf or my ex or had i had any interest in her.
i don't know why she did that.
i too just found out when i saw the pic.

graduation....


mrs patricia.
you are the best teacher i've ever had.



my first day in school.

It was 6 years ago when my previous guardian first brought me out. I was in an all white uniform, with a super heavy bag armed with a huge water bottle. The previous night I was all nervous i could hardly sleep, I kept thinking what would a Singapore school will be. How will I click among the mates in school. My english was still very limited then. I was afraid and keen at the same time. Afraid of the new life facing me. Keen, however, to start a new chapter in my life.

We walked to the bus stop before Parkway Parade. My back aches from the heavy load. I was not given the timetable so my guardian made me bring all the textbooks for my very first day. The bus ride were much shorter than I've expected. Not knowing to me, we only stop to change yet another bus. My guardian and I stopped at the bus stop opposite parkway parade to catch bus 15. It was like that then till I found a nearer way for the rest of my secondary school life.

Once we arrived, we both headed to the office. It was Mrs(i forgot her name, but she taught us chemistry later on) who ushered me to my new class, 1C. I was in a normal academic class. She later told me to head to the basketball court for the morning assembly. I walked among rows of students from 1C and 1 B and stopped at the then sky high Wu Zheng Fa and Cau Heng. They both were my first friends in Telok Kurau Secondary.

They all sang "Majulah Singapura" before the pledge. Everyone then started clenching their fist and put them agaisnt their left chest. I was dumbfounded. There was no such thing both Indonesia or Malaysia. I turned to Syed who then asked me to put up my fist too the way everyone did. I clenched my left fist and put them agaisnt my right chest.

I sat right to the back after Zheng Fa and beside Cau Heng. I was all silent still. It was then that Rudy came to me and asked....
"Indo ya ?" "Indonesian ar ?"
"Ya" I replied.
"Dari mana ?" "from where?"
"Medan, lu ?" "Medan, you ?"
"Jakarta"
He then went off right after that. Again, I sat there alone. Not knowing what's the next lesson and basically not knowing what's going on.

It was still clear in my mind of that first few hours of my first day in school. While the rest the day are gone in my memory, never could I imagine the moments and times I had there will be so amazing and beautiful. For that, I thank my friends for giving me such a wonderful time, for filling that chapter of my life with me, for everything that we've gone through.



god damn it.
so jia lat.



Fuck that Mr.....wait let me see my lecture note...TAN SOON MENG
damn it.
u deprived me from my beautiful and wonderful sleep.
forced me to study all that 24 cases and you came up with such a question ?
damn you man...damn you

you just conducted farudulent misrepresentation man.
you KNOW that everyone will study the cases and you test the theories.
damn you man.
u just breached the contract between you and the class.
cunning fella.

luckily we did not create a legal intention for the test ar.
or else you die ar.
got offer ( you offer to test us )
got acceptance ( we accepted to be tested )
got consideration ( something for something right...hermmmm...let's see....you fulfill ur obligation for the contract u made wif SIM and we get our marks )
lucky you
lucky no intention to create legal intention nia.
or else i brain wash the whole class to sue u ar...
then the relevant case is :
lim geok hian v lim guan chin








only youuuuuuuu
can make the world seems rightttt
only youuuuuu
can make the darkness brighttt
only youuuuu
and youu aloneeeee
yes...only you princess :)
can fill my heart with love for only youuuuuuuu

that's some long entry up there eh.

a super simple edit :)

was studying then i come upon eMMa's blog.
she editted princess's pic !
wow !
she said thanks anyway :)
so i too editted the same pic =P
inspiration from her la.
hehe.
it's just a mere 5 mins edit thou.
kinda sleepy.
might work on it again later on when got more time.
when all this madness is over.
tests and projects.

anyway,
here it is !