again and again.

i have a fight again with her yesterday.
how fucking wonderful is that ?
when my exams start tomorrow.
i can't concentrate.

what i've done so far ?
during the holiday break ?

NOTHING !

i sat there staring at the notes.
doing NOTHING !

MA - i've reach POHR ONLY
HR - i haven't even started any shit.
MARKETING - READ tru till chapter 4 ONLY.

god damn it.

why...
i thought you're suppose to be the person who knows me best.
yes.
my mood fucked up as if i have menstruation during this time.
yes.
i become a bastard when i just wake up.
yes.
during this time, you're the only person i need by me.
and yes.
i become super ultra sensitive during this time.
but i THOUGHT you're suppose to understand.
after 8 months.......

AND I FUCKING THOUGHT YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO ACCEPT ME FOR WHO THE FUCK I AM AND NOT ASKING ME TO CHANGE THIS AND THAT !
but i fuckingly change for you anyway.
i change.
you think i can never do well.
just because i fucked my last semester.
C s and D.
you think i can never break that fucking C ANYMORE.
well get what.
i got an A and a B this time.
and who i did it for ?
no..not myself.
i do nothing for myself anymore.
i don't even fucking know who the fuck i am anymore.
i was an optimist.
that's why i take things easily.
you make me a pessimist.
you even complain when i walk slow.
anyone who knows me since sec 1 know i walk slow.
i walk this way since i was fuckingly born !
but i change.
for you.
YES.
NOT ANYONE ELSE.

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT ME TO DO SOMEMORE PRINCESS ?
may i have your next order please ?

I THOUGHT YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO ACCEPT ME FOR WHOEVER THE FUCK I AM !
well...i thought

to the hell with my life.

if i don't do well and even fail.
i won't blame you.
no, i won't.
i'll blame myself for depending too much on you.
for depending my whole entire fucking life on you.
i'll blame myself for doing EVERYTHING for you.
and it's none of your fault that this happens.
it's my fault for giving you my life.
for making you my LIFE 8 months ago.

no regrets.
if this should end because of ME.
then fuck it.
let it end.
i start it.
i'll end it.
it's all my fucking mistake.

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A store that sells husbands has just opened inNewYork City,
where a woman may go to choosea husband.
Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates.Y
ou may visit the store
ONLY ONCE !
There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights.
There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any man from a particular floor,
or you may choose to go up a floor,
but you cannot go backdown except to exit the building!
So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband .
On the first floor the sign on the door reads:

Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads:>
Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, andlove kids.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking.

"Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:

Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework.
"Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims,
"I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:

Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the house work, and have a strong romantic streak.

She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012th to this floor.
There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.
Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store.Watch your step as you exit the building, and havea nice day!

how fucking true.

bert's angels and demons

during one of my study break.

the angel within

time taken to complete.
one an a half hour.
this angel better help me pass my exams man

the devil emerges

fwah this one...
took me 7 study breaks to complete.
but i'm fuckin satisfied with the result.
fuckin satisfied with both the angel and devil.

the son of angels and demons

check out the bigger version of all at my friendster.

my very own msn icon

wadda think bout it ?

cute ?

i don't know wad's in my mind...
but i think these are fucking cute
i just can't stop laughing !!
well..it's for the animation :/

marketing.

didn't get the chance to present today.
coz our powerpoint were fucked up and my animation are a lil bit messy.
mainly becoz of last min work.
aniway,
i've fixed the animation.
the power point should be good by tomorrow.
and here is something you'll get to see in my animation =D

good game, good laugh

exams are near.
but relaq a while la.
i found this game.
play it :)
it's worth ur time.

http://www.winterrowd.com/maze.htm

don't worry..it's not addictive.
but contagious.
just give it a try and you'll know













good laugh.

http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/15069/Kid_Gets_Owned_By_His_Dad.html?autoplay=true.

enjoy =D

something u get to see very soon.

my next animation.
better.
funnier.
well, i hope.
lol

the unfinished one.

i think it'll take me another 3 fucken days or more to continue to finsih this work.
which i have no time.
and no patience with.
the face.
the hand.
the leg.
the shirt.
the pants.
the hair.
knn...
lazy !

big foot the prequel.

not very long ago...
there lived a monster called the big ass foot.
it was known that he lives in planet "fuck shit".

so..to find out the truth.

b travelled there.

b searched the forests.
b searched the hills.
the mountains.
and after 5 days.
b still find no clue or sign of this so called big ass foot.
so, b called back home.
and there arrive 4 of b's friends to help the search of this mysterious creature.
on their 50th day of tiresome search around that fucking hot planet.
they saw.........

the monster was scary.

however, at the sight of human.

he changes his form to what might seem like a normal human being.

just that his feet are still so asskickinly big.

wasting no time,

b's team went to capture that monster.

the moster ran.

again, they lost track of the moster.

despite his big ass feet,

the moster left no sign behind.

15 days later.

b's team found the moster napping in a hidden cave deep in the jungle.

when the team tried to catch it.

in a nick of time,

the monster fled.

back to the beach.

there...they fought.

the fight were fierce.

with thunderstrom raging above their heads.

rain hit like it was raining ice cubes.

the fight last for a scary 5 days.

but.

the good always wins.

b's team cought the mysterious monster.

the monster surrendered.

however,

finding no way to return home.

b's team were now stuck at that unfortunate planet.

over time,

b and the monster become friends.

and b learned that the monster had the very same "shifu" as that of the legendary monkey king.

only before the monster were able to learn the 72th transformation,

the monkey king killed their "shifu"

resulting the monster to be unable to transform fully into a normal human.

that's where the bigass feet come from.

and b,

knowing a little bit of surgery skills.

and out of pity.

did a plastic surgery to the fucked up monster.

and in return,

the monster told b a way to get back to planet earth.

where b and his team came from.

they held a farewell party before b left.

and on the next monring,

b and team left for earth.

back on earth,

everything remained peaceful.

till...

the news hit that big foot were spotted on earth.

the very last image of the monster that b had was this.

the monster,

after the plastic surgery.

the monster might had followed b secretly back to earth.

however,

it is still not known to b if the big foot on earth is the monster.

or may be the relatives of that monster.

it's a mystery.

and the mystery remains........................

big foot !

from the newpaper today,
they said they found foot print of a big foot.
anyway,
presenting...
what i think might look like some big ass foot.

yesterday,
in the straits times.
singapore are upgrading their public transport system for the eldery.
and here,
presenting the fucked up fact about the public transport in medan.

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personal stuff.

somehow, i'm someone who keeps stuff.

even to the mentos i ate just moments before my oral examinations two years ago.

the left-over mineral water vivi and i had for our very first date.

and ice skating gloves from chinese new year with my housemates 3 years ago.

and of course, those handphones boxes.

unfortunately however,

fuck you thieves.

the very first 6600 i bought was from the my very own money !!

my ang paos money when 6600 just went out in the market.

once gone, i bought t630.

the phone pat's using now.

and YES ! it was stolen again.

after that i use 6100 from my brother which was changed to 6630 last year.

and from that again back to this recent release of the new black 6600.

i've used dunno how many phones it'll take sometime to list them all.

from 8210 to the now 6600.

i've always loved my sony ericson A500, the red small phone.

thou, it's just some blue screen with no camera phone.

it was the best i've ever used.

simple and user-friendly.

been rather busy lately.

anyway, if i were a businessman already today.

i bet i'll be god damn happy.

why ?

i'm about 78% sure that i'll meet steven yim of dchl.

a businessman who earns 3million dollars a freaking MONTH !

i'd be damn happy if i only earns 1 freakin percent of what he earns !

that is 30k balls.

for the holiday,

i'm 100% that i'll be meeting the owner of wong coco.

wait, i just receive a news from dad.

i'll be leaving singapore on the 4th.

to batam, then from batam straight to jakarta.

and YES!

I'LL BE MEETING MY PRINCESS !!!!

i thought that i'll have to go tru another 6 months without meeting her again.

but dad, yes tru msn again, msged me.

tellin me that he'll bring me over to jakarta to meet the owner.

i was glad of course.

however, he said it'll be just a one day or two trip.

but later, he told me this.

"you go on the 4th first, stay over at jill's place again.

then i'll leave for jakarta on the 6th.

and from the 6th, u follow me till the 9th.

fully business.

then on the 10th i'll leave jakarta for medan.

if you wanna stay u stay lo."

and i told dad that i'll stay till the 13th coz on the 12th will be my 9 months annivasary wif princess. :D

thanks dad.

dad and i.

this s a typcial conversation between dad and i on msn.


Hardono says:
what are you doing?

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
nohthing

Hardono says:
Are you at home?

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
yes

Hardono says:
Why not read some books rather that nothing to do?

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
read them all

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
no more books to read

Hardono says:
Than you can go to bookstore to browse one by one, sittting there or you can browse the internet to get some information, then. :d
( as you all know, in msn :d means the big smiley face. i didn't know my dad knows how to use that man !, i have a cool dad, lol )

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
just went to the bookstore yesterday

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
saw one book

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
$80

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
then no mood to buy

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
i was just readin the encyclopedia
( i was readin wikepedia on buddhism and stuff ).

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
now don't know what to read on

Hardono says:
No mood to buy or no money?

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
no mood to buy la

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
valentine coming

Hardono says:
so?
i'm addicted to you, J. says:
may be use that 80 buy something for jill la

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
anyway that book is on photoshop

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
and i got a lot of website about photoshop tutorials

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
just that the book kinda interest me

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
that's all

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
and i know about 40% of what the book's teaching alreadi

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
so pointless to buy

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
i just think that $80 can get me a better book

Hardono says:
Yes, $80 is not cheap. If it is not worth it no need to buy.

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
ya

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
other books i don't know what to buy

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
scared buy $20 already then not nice

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
my favourite author haven't publish any new book
( dan brown)

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
he published 4 books only

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
and i read them all already

Hardono says:
Actually, if we can make use of internet, we can get a lot, a lot of helpful knowledge, right.

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
what contains more knowledge than the encyclopedia ?


Hardono says:
Yes, may be but we should know the website or the email address.
( he studied in NUS, but haven't been using his english for yearsss so very jia lat )

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
www.wikepedia.com


Hardono says:
It is also very import to hear the news on TV because we can observe the top, top people giving speech. They are prof.

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
i no tv la

Hardono says:
Oh yah. Then I try to keep money when I go to S'pore I will buy for you then.
( FWAHH !! damn good arr )

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
no use also

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
cannot connect to my room

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
don't have the line

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
then if wanna sign up for the cnn all

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
quite ex

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
then the stupid strait times website now must pay money then can read


Hardono says:
You can buy it every day then. It is not ex

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
got

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
sometimes

Hardono says:
I will ask A Kiet to your house to install the line for TV. :d
( A Kiet is our family technician who's been fixing all our electrical appliancies like the tv, ps, dvd for a long long time. also, he's one of my dad's buddy )

i'm addicted to you, J. says:
hahahaha



see he don't say hi to start a conversation.
and he leave without saying a bye.
wth.
he's just startin to use msn and this is like the longest conversation we had to date.

i never knew dad could make me smile when i'm so god damn bored.
love you dad.

HR animation.

I did a 2.50 minutes of animation for this project and it has my voice, handi's and alvet's voice in it.
i don't know how it turned out thou.
anyway, i tried to publish it in youtube and it failed.
does any of you know how to upload a flash file in here ?
tag it and you can see my ever first longest flash animation.
lol.
i know it's nothing great.
but it's my first flash animation that i actually showed to more than 5 people.
for those of you who've seen it.
i know it's of no quality.
but mind you,
i did that in one night.
1 day before the presentation which is yesterday.
and the last version of flash i used was flash mx.
and it was like i haven't been using flash ever since 2 years ago !
i'm not really proud of it thou...

but please do tell me how to upload it up here.
then you'll get to see my coming video-animation on the song "my sacrifice" soon !
i'm workin on it thou...
if got lots of free time den like in 3 days.
if no...then may be next month.
if i become lazy.
then never.
lol.

my greatest achievement to date.

ladies and gentlemen.
presenting....

have you ever...

have you ever felt lost before ?
no, not in the sense of ur life.
but to your other half.

i don't know what's this feeling.

i don't understand these thoughts.
it's as if whatever i do.
every single step i make.
is wrong.
no matter how i feel right about it.
it's like...
there's always something wrong with you no matter how well you do on the other field.

u asked me to change.
u asked me to be this way.
but now u shoot be down.
saying i've changed.
no, not to the one that cared for you.
not to the one that used to loved u.

what have i done wrong ?
i'm loving you more each passing day.

i make mistakes.
but i'm just human.
there are things i can do and things i can't.


u know...
lack of sleep could cause stroke.
at times like this.
i just hope that one of my blood vessels in my brain will just literally burst.
i just feel like takin a gun and shoot myself dead.


have you ever felt that u can't lift up ur head anymore.
your head aches like there's no tomorrow.
your heart sank from reasons you're not really sure about.
your heart aches.
it's like you can't do anything.
you just don't feel like doing anything.
even eating.
drinking.
have you ever feel so lost you don't even know what's right and wrong anymore ?
it's like every single thing you see is so blur.
and you just can't sleep no matter how you toss and turn.
and you end up spending your whole night crying at the corner of your bed.

above all,
you're still the one i'll love.
from the tip of my hair till the tip of my toe.
i'm all yours.

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yes i'm whining bout my life wif my gf.

this is what make me human.

hate it ?

then

FUCK OFF

no one invites you here at the first fucking place.