to love...or to be loved ?

should i keep on lookin for my love or shall i just stop now ?

anyway, here's a typical description of the teenage relationships here in medan
...down here at medan, for the guys. if you have $$..it's a god damn thing that the gals will do the chasing.
anyway, money really talks here.in every aspects of life in medan. money talks. if you're a god damn rich girl, an only child too, i'll for sure chase after u for a short time relationship. of course, to cheat ur money. well, my friends do that. and so their thinkin is just this.
find a fucking only daughter of a rich family. fuck her so she'll be yours. you don't need to make her pregnant. just fuck her.
there are couples here who actually don't look for money as the reason of their relationship. i have a friend who's together with her gf for 7 fucking years. since secondary school till now. and a few more cases of that too.


k so, i have this girl. an only child. rich. and claimed that she loves me. what's love anyway.
but i don't know whether do i love her or not as i'm currently kinda lazy to be committed, kinda lazy to be in a relationship.
what should i do ?
do i have to follow the typical hope of any medan guy...i've got what everyone wants here and i'm a dumb asshole if i let her go....
or i wait till the moment come when i'm ready to be committed again ?


or may be...all this relationship stuff at this age is crap ?
anyway, she's older than me a couple of years



by the way, there were 2 damn fucking beautiful chicks i saw just now. man...i should go out more now man !! medan do have FUCKING BEAUTIFUL GIRLS also leh. all the while i thought all typical one...rebonded hair, same style of hair and all.......
there are beautiful girls =D