i'm feeling black.

i feel very black.
very very blackish.
thus, the new layout.

these 4 months has been the greatest time of my life.
i re-discovered myself agian.
but i never thought it'd only last this short.

i could feel that burning sensation in my lips again.
and i remembered that feeling once agian.
the feeling that i left 4 months ago.
i think i'll be burning myself again.

i'm in constant pain.
i believe everyone and every soul has the right to fight for their own freedom.
why don't you ?
why didn't you ?
and i hate giving up before fighting.
you've given up before i could even fight.
and that kills me inside.

and in the process of learning all these.
and in the process of learning to understand all the why.
i forgot one thing that i've learned a few months ago.
the one thing that made me strong that january.
to do what makes me happy.
cause,
at the end of the day,
i'm just gonna be alone anyway.
it'll just be me.
cozing in the blanket.
in the dark cold night.
i will be alone anyway.
let me learn to do just that back again.





i wanted to post some picture about my ride yesterday before it happened.
anyway,
here they are.

my ride.
the red honda city.
my pelari =P

my best friend on the road.
you know why they are my best friend ?
because they never complains.
they just listen.

hell, they never even complain listening to my shoutings to the song when i'm driving alone man !!

a very standard interior.


































i guess :idaretodream: project died the way u killed me last night too.